03 March 2011

Not Giving Up

Wow...it's 2011. Spring is coming. Ash Wednesday is next week.

I was thinking about this before I typed this. I'm so bad about keeping up posts that it seems at this point almost a waste of time to post anything in the first place. So why am I making an entry? Mostly for my sake.

I have so much on my mind. So many things to prepare for. So many things to look forward to. So many things to do at work, outside of work, in taiko, in my life in general. It's overwhelming. In the midst of all the chaos in my life, I'm also confronted by the the things that can possibly damage me spiritually. I know through experience that the prince of darkness is always near by, seducing me to do things that I know I shouldn't do as a practicing Catholic. At times like these, it feels like I'm carrying the weight of the world on my shoulders. I feel helpless; alone.

But no matter how many times I allow myself to fall, I'm never going to stop trying to pick myself up. I've come too far with much toiling to get to where I am now. It would be an insult to God if I decided to just...quit.

Through the power of the Holy Spirit, I'll persevere. Without Him, I'm incapable of doing anything. This is fact.

One day, I'll show the world what I'm worth. Until then, I have to remain patient until I'm ready to complete my own metamorphosis.